Excuses

Below are some of the excuses I thought of for last weeks challenge. There are a lot of them that is for sure. Now I just have to figure out how to cut through them and get going.

-NO motivation. I just think to myself “ah, I am good enough” even though I am not.
-Tired, always so tired.
-Depressed…
-I feel like I have tried to do well and be healthy and haven’t gotten what I wanted out of it (to get pregnant) so now I am bitter and figure “what is the point?”
-Want to spend time with my husband. I tell myself that I don’t see him enough and we need to spend time together so I don’t work out and we usually eat something together.
-The dog. This sounds weird but since he is home all day alone I feel guilty leaving him in his crate at night if my husband isn’t home (which normally he isn’t) so I feel like I have to go home instead of going to the gym.
-One cookie/diet coke/anything unhealthy is not going to be such a big deal.
-If I am going to start eating healthy tomorrow, I HAVE to eat everything in unhealthy tonight.
-I already did horribly by eating that one bad thing; I might as well live it up today and start tomorrow.
-Food makes me HAPPY. Caffeine also makes me happy. I know this is a temporary happiness, but I honestly am in a WAY better mood immediately after eating In-n-Out or some other yummy, bad food.
-I have always been the short, stocky one. That isn’t going to change. I am not “skinny” and never will be.
-The more weight I gain, the more excuses I find. I feel so bad about myself that I don’t even want to go out in public, even to the gym.
-Public or family gatherings, I feel like I have to eat the food provided to not be rude.

Weekly blogging

I was blogging often when I didn't have to and now that we need to blog once every week I almost missed it. I was getting ready for bed and realized that its now 2 AM on Sunday morning which means I am late...so, hopefully this is still acceptable.

I am still not doing well, but I did buy the Eat Clean diet book, which is good so far. Most of it is already information I know but I just don't live by. Story of my life. Hopefully I can find the motivation to finally start living it!

Starting another month

So, I completely failed, big time! Not only did I not lose weight, I gained! What the....? I think I am dealing with a little S.A.D, which is not an excuse, just a fact. I think better understanding why I have been feeling so down and no motivation lately will help me to figure out a way to fix it. Anyway, no excuses. On to February and doing better! I am SO impressed with everyone's weight loss, so impressed! Good job peeps, hopefully next month I will be right up there with ya. Thanks for the great motivation!

failing

So this month is pretty much down the tubes. I have 3 days left and I am thinking that as long as I can be at the exact same weight I was a month ago then I am o.k. Yes, that means I have gained in the past 4 weeks and I am just hoping that in a few days I can be at the 150 I was at the beginning and i will start February anew. I know, ridiculous and I am not even going to try and make any excuses.

Starting something I have done before....

I am starting a "diet" that I have done before. The thing is, this diet isn't about weight loss, it has a specific purpose and that is to help with my endometriosis and hopefully to help me get pregnant. The diet is specifically tailored for endometriosis and not for fertility, but if its the endo that is causing my infertility I am thinking that the diet could help both. Anyway, almost three years ago I started eating according to this diet and really felt a lot better. But, six months into it I went on a cruise and have never been able to get back into these eating habits. When I write the things I am not allowed to eat/drink you should understand why.

No Wheat
No Dairy
No Sugar
No Red Meat
No Soy
No Caffeine

If you know me, you know I live off of diet soda and chocolate (not really, but I feel like that). So, getting off sugar and caffeine is probably the hardest part of this for me. Oh, and this also includes no eggs. So, it is difficult. But, this is not about weight loss. This is about repairing a part of my body that is damaged, or at least helping it to heal some. I hope to feel better from this and hopefully, someday......I will get pregnant. Either way, I will be healthier and that's a reward in itself.

new week...

I haven't blogged for a week and I know that I needed to, but I really don't have a lot to say. I am not doing well at eating well or working out. Last week I was eating great and seeing no progress and I always get discouraged quickly. I am not a patient person, which is something I need to work on. Maybe my challenge for myself is to try to be more patient with myself, give myself a little time to progress. I don't know. Anyway, everyone seems to be doing great and I am happy for you all. I guess I just haven't found my reason to change my body. I need that before I can ever really succeed at this.

Knowledge vs. Wisdom

So, in my mind there is a difference between knowledge and wisdom. To me, knowledge is information that you have gained and retained but don't necessarily use. Wisdom is knowledge that you use. When it comes to health, nutrition, working out, how to have a great body...I have the knowledge. I have a little brother and his wife that are personal trainers along with him being a Physical Therapist and her studying to be a Physician's Assistant. They have AMAZING bodies. Over the past 3 years they have given me all the knowledge I need to succeed at having the body that I want. The problem is, I have been unwise. I have not used that knowledge. I want to change that, so why don't I? It is so weird to me. I am a successful, hard working person. I usually am the type of person that does what I say I am going to do, but that has not been the case with my body and I don't know why. So, I am going to try to use my knowledge and become WISE!!!