Girls Weekend

So I am out of town with my girlfriends this weekend and it is not good for the eating or the working out. A few of us are going to go running tomorrow morning, which should help. I really think I can get myself back on track in every way and think this weekend will be a good catapult. I am around my girl friends that I love but that are always making excuses for themselves and for each other. They also believe that everyone who looks great are just naturally and genetically more prone to looking great, which I know is not true and I kind of want to prove them wrong.

This Week!

This week has been a good one. There are a few reasons for that, the biggest one being that my husband and I were approved for adoption yesterday. This has been a long time coming and it is something we are extremely excited for!

Also, I have been eating much better this week. The Eat Clean Diet book has been by my side all week and although it is all information I already had, the author puts it in terms that really make sense to me. I have enjoyed her book and am now lending it to one of my co-workers. I haven't eaten perfectly clean all week, but I have done pretty well and am enjoying it.

I just feel better, getting past the fog that I have been in for the past month.

Excuses

Below are some of the excuses I thought of for last weeks challenge. There are a lot of them that is for sure. Now I just have to figure out how to cut through them and get going.

-NO motivation. I just think to myself “ah, I am good enough” even though I am not.
-Tired, always so tired.
-Depressed…
-I feel like I have tried to do well and be healthy and haven’t gotten what I wanted out of it (to get pregnant) so now I am bitter and figure “what is the point?”
-Want to spend time with my husband. I tell myself that I don’t see him enough and we need to spend time together so I don’t work out and we usually eat something together.
-The dog. This sounds weird but since he is home all day alone I feel guilty leaving him in his crate at night if my husband isn’t home (which normally he isn’t) so I feel like I have to go home instead of going to the gym.
-One cookie/diet coke/anything unhealthy is not going to be such a big deal.
-If I am going to start eating healthy tomorrow, I HAVE to eat everything in unhealthy tonight.
-I already did horribly by eating that one bad thing; I might as well live it up today and start tomorrow.
-Food makes me HAPPY. Caffeine also makes me happy. I know this is a temporary happiness, but I honestly am in a WAY better mood immediately after eating In-n-Out or some other yummy, bad food.
-I have always been the short, stocky one. That isn’t going to change. I am not “skinny” and never will be.
-The more weight I gain, the more excuses I find. I feel so bad about myself that I don’t even want to go out in public, even to the gym.
-Public or family gatherings, I feel like I have to eat the food provided to not be rude.

Weekly blogging

I was blogging often when I didn't have to and now that we need to blog once every week I almost missed it. I was getting ready for bed and realized that its now 2 AM on Sunday morning which means I am late...so, hopefully this is still acceptable.

I am still not doing well, but I did buy the Eat Clean diet book, which is good so far. Most of it is already information I know but I just don't live by. Story of my life. Hopefully I can find the motivation to finally start living it!

Starting another month

So, I completely failed, big time! Not only did I not lose weight, I gained! What the....? I think I am dealing with a little S.A.D, which is not an excuse, just a fact. I think better understanding why I have been feeling so down and no motivation lately will help me to figure out a way to fix it. Anyway, no excuses. On to February and doing better! I am SO impressed with everyone's weight loss, so impressed! Good job peeps, hopefully next month I will be right up there with ya. Thanks for the great motivation!

failing

So this month is pretty much down the tubes. I have 3 days left and I am thinking that as long as I can be at the exact same weight I was a month ago then I am o.k. Yes, that means I have gained in the past 4 weeks and I am just hoping that in a few days I can be at the 150 I was at the beginning and i will start February anew. I know, ridiculous and I am not even going to try and make any excuses.